Ugh

Well that is the only word for it today. I feel shit, not ill just shit. I am miserable, can't stop crying, have got so much going on and am struggling to cope at the minute. Family is falling apart around me, I'm exhausted trying to do my degree and work full time. I don't want to be here today, I want to be on a dessert island on my own where no one can make me cry or hurt me :( fooling hate families, one of the reasons me and Mark have no wedding plans, in our families marriage is just a joke, why ruin what we have!
Grrr sorry I needed that vent.
On a happier note, I've not binged with the upset, I've eaten normal, although Mark has just treated me to a mug of tea and a peanut butter kit kat, that's good though considering what I normally get like!

I am on half term for a week now, hoping to get some rest but have got lots planned, visit over to Granny, cinema with brother, a massive clean at home, want to get the nets and curtains washed and the carpets cleaned! Going to see my bestie for a cuppa too at some point.
Tomorrow I am going into school to be an extra in a new comedy drama being filmed called Love and Marriage with Alison Steadman and Larry Lamb, I'll be honest the money definitely sold it to me! Although with the way I am feeling tonight I don't think my sad puffy face will be a good 'extra!'

This afternoon me and Marky planted some of our flowers in the indoor greenhouse to start them off for spring. We've started with marigolds, foxglove, poppy, sweet pea, and petunias. Herbs we've started are dill, tarragon, coriander, mint and basil. Love planting in the garden :)

Catch up!

Well thanks to Uni work, school work and jewellery making I have been snowed under with business and unfortunately no time to blog. Yesterday I submitted my 3rd assignment of this year, two left to finish this year now and I am on the final countdown!
I started a Facebook page for my handmade jewellery yesterday, at long last. Have a peek, www.facebook.com/HamdmadeJewelleryByCarlaLouise
I am also trying to set up an Etsy shop, all obviously taking it's time!

Well, I knew it would happen, inevitable really, I've binged again, for the last week or so, biscuits have crept back in, chocolate bars, Grrr so annoyed with myself but this is me, I have no will power and binge so damn easily. My meals have been spot on, exercise has been good but them bloody chocolate cravings have beat me again, so annoyed with myself but think I am sorted again now, hopefully anyway.

Next week is half term from work and I have big plans to get back on track 100%. I think a big factor in my binge has been the miserable cold,snowy weather, Uni work piling up, tiredness, and feeling run down. I can not wait for half term, I've got no Uni work to cram in, a dinner date with my girl friends, cleaning the carpets and a massive cleaning session in the house, and a bloody good rest!!